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DBS Scheduled

Sleeping at night is getting harder and harder. When I close my eyes all I can picture is getting my head cut open and all I can hear is the drilling. When I look in the mirror all I can think of is in a month all this hair will be gone. When I look at Hailey I just want to cry because taking care of her is going to be so difficult. But then I think about how difficult it is now to pick her up, and how much support and family I have that will help me take care of her. And in the long run, when I can hug Hailey with two hands, this will all be worth it. It is so scary, but I am doing this for her, and I will get through it.

The first surgery is scheduled for April 25th. I am heading to MA April 11 to prepare. I am having an evaluation on the 12th, pre-testing on the 13th and a MRI under anesthesia on the 14th. On the 15th my sister is having a 31 gifts party for me so I can maybe get some scarves to wear on my head. My family is so wonderful, I love them soo much and I dont know what I would do without them. They have made me the person I am today and they have been there for me through so much. I can't thank them enough for all they've done.

Hailey is doing well. She is eating her fruits and veggies now, sitting up on her own and will be 6 months old already on Tuesday! Wow, time flies. I am having a blast with her. She is my world, my everything and she is perfect in every way.

Ryan is also doing well. He has 3 more 6 week rotations and one 4 week rotation left and he is done PA school! He is looking at maybe doing a rotation in MA in May s he can be there with Hailey and I. I hope it all works out. He is such a wonderful man and I am so happy to have him in my life.

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