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The little things in life

Last week I was at the y, sitting in the babysitting room watching my beautiful girl play and my mom walks in crying.  She came to tell me that my great aunt Theresa had passed away.  We have known for a long time that she was sick but for some reason it seemed like she was going to live forever.  Alot of people probably think, "great aunt" is nothing really but Theresa was such a wonderful woman.  She was strong and beautiful and loved everyone so much.  I haven't seen her in a long time and I dont think she ever got to meet Hailey but I felt so close to her and I am devastated that I didnt go see her.  Hailey would have loved her.  When I was little, we used to go to a cookout each year with all of my dads cousins and aunts and uncles and everyones kids and Theresa used to tell me she was going to take me home.  I can still hear her voice saying that. 
So, Sunday we went to Theresa's wake.  I walked up to her children standing in line and hugged each of them.  I was there to give my condolences and let them know how sorry I was for their loss.  They all started telling me how much Theresa prayed for me to get better and how much she talked about me.  I felt sort of foolish and immediately wanted to cry.  I guess what Im trying to say is I was always too busy to go see her and here she is sitting at home praying for me.  I learned something that day.  Dont ever forget to tell the ones you love how much you care for them.  Don't ever say you don't have time to go visit someone or to call them.  Its so easy to make these excuses but the feeling you get when they pass away and you didnt go see them is aweful. 

I cant change things in the past or predict whats going to come in the future.  I cant change the world or make everyone happy.  But I can tell everyone I love that I love them, I can hug them and kiss them and do my best to be a good person. Sometime's you dont realize the little things in life that can make someone so happy.  A kiss on your cheek at the end of a long day, an "i love you" before bed, a compliment when you feel so down, or just a hug when you need it most.  These little things mean so much more then money or anything else.  These little things can change someone's life. 

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