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Happiness

It's amazing how good life can be when you surround yourself with positive people.  No matter how low you are in life, it could be worse.  A friend recently helped me realize how to appreciate the things you have and no matter what situation you are in, there's always a solution and there's always a way to make it better.  I find myself looking for the kindness in people, the positive in every situation, and the good things in life. 

This Wednesday Cody is having probably one of the biggest surgeries he will ever have.  I have been a nervous wreck since I scheduled it.  As a parent, we tend to over analyze every situation, google every symptom and surgery and hope for the best but prepare for the worst.  I have learned over the last few days that with a positive attitude, positive people by my side, and a prayer to god, everything will be just fine.  Cody is by far the strongest kid I have ever met and he WILL get through this.  He WILL be okay.  His speech will improve so much, and we are hoping it will also help his eating.

I recently feel ok with where I am in life. When I look around me, this is not at all where I pictured myself at 30 but my happiness outweighs everything. My children bring me so much happiness and joy and make every day an adventure.  My family is so amazing and they have all helped me get to where I am today.  My friends are something I cant even explain.  I have best friends that live thousands of miles away and still support me through everything I do.  I have friends I've known only a few weeks who talk to me every day and support me through my biggest struggles.  I have friends who know exactly what I've gone through, because they've been there too, and they just get it and are there to listen day after day. 

It's not about where you live, the car you drive, the money you have or the clothes you wear.  All that matters is that you're surrounded with love and kindness, you have a roof over your head and food on the table.  I have surely been enjoying every day to the fullest and smiling more than I have in years.  Thank you to those around me who have helped me get back to my old self, helped me realize who I really am, and helped me understand the important things in life... like happiness.

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