Some days its hard to find the words to explain what dystonia feels like. It's invisible to most people, yet it shapes every hour of my day quietly, persistently and often painfully. I don't share this because I want sympathy, I share it because awareness matters and too many people still don't know what dystonia is, let alone how much it can affect someones life. Dystonia affects my hands, feet, back and neck. My hands ache as though they've been gripping something for hours, even when they're resting. My neck strains as if theres a weight hanging from it and no amount of stretching helps. My feet cramp and curl making sonething as simple as standing still feel like a test of endurance. I've grown stronger in ways I never expected. Ive learned patience, determination and resilience. Ive learned to celebrate small victories, like waking up with a little less stiffness or being abke to open a jar of spaghetti sauce. Im sharing this because I want people to under...
Its been almost a month since my surgery. That morning started with a splitting headache before I even got to the hospital. I think part of it was because the surgery was late in the day and I couldn't eat the whole day before or that morning. We brought Max to my parents house and headed to Boston. My surgery was scheduled for 3:30 and we got there a little after one. I checked in, got lab work and before I knew it I was changing into my gown and fancy slipper socks. I asked for some IV tylenol which helped the headache a bit then the surgeon came in and they told me to shut my DBS off even after we told them it had a surgery mode. So, I shut it off then off I went into the OR. I remember moving onto the operating table and what seemed like seconds later they were pulling a breathing tube out of my throat. They woke me up too soon so I felt it being pulled out. yikes. The next thing I remember is being in recovery and telling the nurse my nose hurt. She was working on getting me ...