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My little girl has arrived!

September 29, 2010 was the happiest day of my life. I went to the hospital at about 6am with an appointment to be induced. The labor and delivery floor was packed, I guess it was a popular day to have babies. I had to sit in the waiting room for about a half hour and anxiously wait for a room to be available. Once I was in a room they hooked me up to the monitors, gave me an IV, did some blood work and told me I was 4 1/2 cm dilated. I was having contractions but not strong enough so they started pitocin to get the labor going. By about noon time I was having pretty strong contractions that were getting more and more painful. My plan was to not get an epidural but by 7cm, I changed my mind. After I got it I was really happy I did and things seemed to go much quicker from then on.
Around 5:00 I was 10cm and ready to go. I started pushing and at 6:34 pm I heard the most wonderful sound I have ever heard, my little girl cry for the first time. They put her on my chest and the second I saw her I loved her more than words could ever explain. She was 8lbs 4oz of perfection. The most amazing moment of my life.
My parents were here just waiting to meet their newest grandchild and we were all very excited she was born before they had to leave.

During my pregnancy, my dystonia didn't seem to be that bad. I still had quite a few spasms but it didn't get worse until I was in labor. During labor, my right hand kept going numb and going into a spasm. I had no control over it and couldn't use it but it just came and went a few times. Once Hailey was born, it seemed to get better for the rest of the time I was in the hospital. I've been home for a week now and it seems to be happening again. Yesterday my wrist got stuck just like my left one and had to be pulled out of the spasm. I have also been getting several spasms a day in my foot and my jaw is very sore on the right side when I chew. I'm very scared about all of this because I never know when its going to happen and now I have a baby to take care of. I guess my next step is to decide whether I should take meds and get botox or breastfeed because I can't do both. I can't see a doctor until November so I'm just hoping things dont get too bad.
For now I am just going to enjoy my princess and I will update everyone soon on whats going on!

Comments

  1. MarleneOctober 11, 2010 at 7:50 PM

    I wonder what it is about being pregnant. I mean, that when I was in that state I felt a little calmer and I took care of my body, ie. ate small meals regularly. When time came to deliver, I used imagery, which I practiced for several weeks to help me through my delivery. I attribute this to my awesome experience (with the last one, that is).
    Being pregnant gives us a lot to focus on... that little life growing inside. I wonder if that somehow affected your dystonia. I am no expert, but just very interested in how this all plays out. I fully believe that our brains are the tool that makes our lives work out. I know for a fact that my brain is what makes me hear when my ears don't hear.
    I wish you luck as you do all you can to educate yourself about dystonia and find the right care. Keep writing and keep the faith!

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