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i am starting to have anxiety.  i hate everything about dystonia.  i hope everyone who reads this can help me promote awareness and help to find a cure.  i am thinking of finding a walk or something to take part in, would anyone be interested in joining me? 
things are getting worse by the day.  my back gets stuck now and wakes me up alot at night.  last week two fingers curled in on my right hand and have not released.  it makes me sick.  i cant do anything.  its so hard to lift hailey, to get her dressed, to cook and clean and do normal things a stay at home mom does.  its ridiculous.  sometimes my hips and legs hut so bad i feel like by next week i could be in a wheelchair.  i dont really know whats happening with my surgerym, i guess they still havents heard from my insurance and the frame to hold my head in place hasnt arrived yet.  another thing to make me sick.  ugh.  if they cant do it november 17th, i will probably have it december 8th.  it seems a bit close to christmas.   i really want to feel good on christmas, hailey is going to be so cute and have so much fun opening presents this year.
well i guess ill go for now.  im going to research some kind of walk and let everyone  know the details, let me know if your interested in helping. 
sorry for the spelling errors and for the negativity, i just feel like poo and had to vent!

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