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2013

2012 brought me so many great things.  The biggest thing was my hand.  At the beginning of 2012, I opened my hand and it has pretty much been open since.  Some days I have tightness but after stretching it and working with it, the tendons are no longer shortened and I can use my hand like I could 4 years ago.  Its a great relief, especially with the baby coming.  My mom reminded me the other day how difficult it was to give Hailey a bath with one hand and with that wrist brace on.  This time it will be so much easier.  I had a hard time but I was so used to not having my hand that it was just normal for me. 
My foot is still giving me a lot of problems.  Most days its pretty painful, especially if Im walking a lot or standing for long periods.  I try not to talk about it a lot or complain because there is nothing that can be done.   I am due 5 weeks from tomorrow so hopefully once Cody is born, I can have my settings changed and my foot will be back to normal. 
I am looking forward to 2013 and all the great things that will be happening.  We will welcome our baby boy into the world.  I am so ready to meet him.  In May, we will have our second annual Dystance4Dystonia walk that Im very excited about and hoping to raise even more money then last year to help find a cure!!  On June 8th, I will marry Ryan, my best friend, my companion, the greatest father to my children, and the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.  Although we are already married, this is our "big" wedding where all our family will be, I will wear my white wedding gown and we will have our family and friends in the wedding with us.  Its going to be an amazing day, we've worked hard planning it and I cant wait to say "I do" (again). 

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