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Dystonia won’t stop me

 


My dystonia was getting bad again, I was overweight and unhappy with how I looked. I spent most days feeling sorry for myself and just thinking of every excuse I could to not change. I didn’t have the time to workout or the money to buy healthier foods. I didn’t have the energy to cook good meals and I was in too much pain to get up and do something. I never took the time to think about my own body or my own health and I never thought to change my whole lifestyle.

On New Year’s Eve, I saw a picture of myself that my mom took and was so unhappy with the way I looked that it brought me to tears. That week I started working out every day with videos on YouTube. The week after I joined weight watchers. The week after that we bought a treadmill and I started walking every day. I changed the way I drink my coffee, I stopped drinking soda, and I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I got up and moved and this morning I was down 12lbs since January 6th. I am so happy to say I’m losing weight but what’s more important is the way I feel. I feel so much happier and energetic. I could not have started this and continued if it wasn’t for the support of my family. Jim joined weight watchers with me so it’s been a lot of fun. My kids have also been great with not bugging me while I’m working out and loving all the new meals I’ve been cooking.

My dystonia is still bad some days but I power through the pain and I will not let it stop me. I’ve been going to PT so my hand is getting better and getting Botox every 3 months to help with my hand and foot spasms. 

I’m very motivated to keep going, this healthier life has made me feel less bloated, my clothes fit better and I have so much more energy. I have so many goals to aim for and I can’t wait to share them! 

Thank you for reading and for all the love & support ❤️

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