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When Ryan first asked me to move to Florida, I was undecided.  I was just finished school and was hoping to find a job.  At the same time I didn't want Ryan to move so far away from me.  But all my doctors and family was in MA... there were so many decisions I had to make and I am so glad i made the one I did.  These last two years have been hard but amazing and if I didn't come here I wouldn't be where I am and probably wouldnt have little miss Hailey.  It has been one hell of a journey and I can't wait to continue our life together as a family, wherever that may be.  I am so proud of Ryan for all that he's done and I appreciate all his support through my surgery and everything else.  He has one more week of clinicals and then he is done school!  Next week we will finish packing, my parents come next Thursday (the 25th)  and his parents and sisters come next Saturday (the 27th)!  And graduation is Sunday the 28th! After his graduation we are staying on Fort Myers Beach for the week then moving home to MA until we find a place and Ryan finds a job (in MA or NH).  I'm very excited for all of it! :)

Hailey's two bottom teeth are finally poking through!! yay!  She is very close to walking and loves to say DOG!! hehee she's so funny and at a great age!!  I cannot believe she will be one next month!! ahhh!!!

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