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Smiling Just Because

There is nothing in the world I've ever wanted more than being a mother. The most important people in my life have always been my family. My mother is the greatest woman I've ever known and I wanted nothing but to be just like her when I grew up. She has guided me through life, making me smile and wiping my tears when I needed her to. She has been there for me in more ways than I could ever express. Every time I'm having a bad day, my mom always makes it better. She is an amazing sister, aunt, grandmother(mooma), daughter, friend, but most of all she is an amazing mother.
Another very important person in my life is my father. Constantly having a smile on his face, he makes everything and everyone happy. He's been there for me in so many ways and I cant thank him enough for all his love and support. I always hoped to someday have a relationship like my parents, who have been married over 30 years.
All of my hopes and dreams came true the day my daughter was born. There is nothing that makes me happier than to look into her eyes, tell her I love her and see her beautiful smile. She has made me look at life differently, smiling just because and thinking about all the great things in life.
Four and a half years ago, I met a wonderful man. My life wouldn't be the same without him. He has held my hand, wiped my tears, hugged me tight, and has made me smile and laugh like no one else has. I fell head over heals in love with him when I met him, and all over again when I saw him with his little girl. He is a wonderful boyfriend and an amazing father and I can't wait to spend my life with him.

Moving away from my family was a hard thing for me to do but I am enjoying this crazy, beautiful ride. Everything I have done has made me who I am, and I wouldn't change a thing. I am just smiling for the things I have and the things I love, staying positive so I can fight this dystonia and get better.

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