A couple days ago I was going to the store with Hailey. Sometimes this is a lot of work by myself but for the most part I do okay. Well we got to the store and I went to take the stroller out of my trunk to put Hailey in. My left shoulder popped so loud and my arm just dropped. Immediately, my fingers went numb. Not only was this very painful but also very frustrating. Now, I was kind of stuck and had to either lift the stroller again to put it back or lift Hailey (or eventually do both). I was scared but I have learned over the years to do many things with one arm. I know this is very annoying to everyone around me because it happens so often but it is very annoying to me as well! I have been icing it off and on all day every day since it happened. This morning when I woke up, after sleeping with the ice pack on I felt okay, and decided to try to pack some stuff since we will be moving soon. Not such a good idea. I am so bored just sitting here but I guess thats all I can do. My whole arm is killing me more than ever and I just can't tell if its dislocated or not. I am so frustrated and hope it just moves its way back into place so I can get on with my life!!
I wake up in the morning, get my kids ready for school, make my husband and I a cup of coffee and take three small pills. When you look at them you’d never imagine what they could do to your body but right from the beginning I was willing to do it. No matter what it took, I would do it. Little did I know, these pills would just be another part of the sadness. I continue on my day, limiting caffeine, watching what I eat and gaining a pound a minute. Before bed, Jim injects more medication into my buttocks. These medications are supposed to be getting my body ready to have a baby but for some reason this small thing that I want so badly is so hard to achieve. Since the day I met Jim, we’ve wanted a baby. We’ve picked out names, first outfits, and ways we want to tell our parents the news. It’s been 4 years since we agreed we wanted to start trying and we still don’t have it. Just before Covid hit, we decided to see a fertility specialist to help us achieve pregnancy. We tracked my cyc...
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