A couple days ago I was going to the store with Hailey. Sometimes this is a lot of work by myself but for the most part I do okay. Well we got to the store and I went to take the stroller out of my trunk to put Hailey in. My left shoulder popped so loud and my arm just dropped. Immediately, my fingers went numb. Not only was this very painful but also very frustrating. Now, I was kind of stuck and had to either lift the stroller again to put it back or lift Hailey (or eventually do both). I was scared but I have learned over the years to do many things with one arm. I know this is very annoying to everyone around me because it happens so often but it is very annoying to me as well! I have been icing it off and on all day every day since it happened. This morning when I woke up, after sleeping with the ice pack on I felt okay, and decided to try to pack some stuff since we will be moving soon. Not such a good idea. I am so bored just sitting here but I guess thats all I can do. My whole arm is killing me more than ever and I just can't tell if its dislocated or not. I am so frustrated and hope it just moves its way back into place so I can get on with my life!!
I have been doing as well as could be expected. I am back in Florida so it's nice to be with Ryan. Although I am still upset about the whole thing, I am trying hard to smile and not let it show. The spasms have returned and have gotten worse since the DBS was removed. When I suck on a piece of candy or ice, my throat tightens up. It's very scary but Im hoping it won't get any worse. My neck also twitches sometimes and my foot spasms have come back. My hand is curled in but if I think about it, I can straighten my wrist (not my fingers). The most upsetting part is that I was just looking at pictures of myself the day after DBS and I had a huge smile on my face because I had made it through and then a couple weeks later there was a picture of my hand open. I had never been so excited as I was that day. I had so much in my head that I wanted to do now that I could use my hand and most of it involved Hailey. Hailey helped me ...
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