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I Believe

I believe in kindness and helping people.  I believe that no matter what, you should smile at the person walking by you on the street even if they don't smile back.  I believe in sunsets and dancing in the rain.  I believe in finding the good in every situation even if it feels like your life is about to end.
The last year has been rough.  I've been through a lot and I'm still here, standing tall and proud.  I have fought through obstacles, stood strong for my children and changed my life in the matter of days.  There are a lot of things about life that are hard.  It's hard to smile when you find out your dad is in the hospital with pneumonia and the flu and will be intubated for 9 days.  It's hard to laugh when your son is going in for his 12th surgery in just a couple weeks, It's hard to stand tall when nothing around you feels right.  But, I have learned that sitting on the couch and crying and feeling sorry for myself will get me NOWHERE.  How will that help my son get better?  Will that get my dad healthy?  Will that find me a miracle so I'm not in pain 24/7?  Getting up and blasting the music in my car with my windows down and singing at the top of my lungs with my children to "accomp'ny me" is one of my favorite things to do when I'm feeling down.  My children have brought me to a place I never saw myself reaching.  I have started praying for miracles and happiness and my days are getting better. 
Last year when my dad got sick, it was the scariest thing I've ever been through.  We almost lost him.  I can't even imagine my life without him.  My parents are two of the most important people in my life, and my closest friends.  I thank god every day that he is alive and well.  He's going in tomorrow for an angioplasty but his spirits are high and when I heard his laugh tonight, I knew in my heart that every thing will be okay.  My mom is the strongest woman I know for going through that with him. 
I also believe that anything is possible, if you have the courage to make it happen.  This is something I am still working on but believe more every day.  I am working so hard to change my lifestyle.  The healthier I am, the better I will feel.  I want so badly to take classes and change my career to something that will help people and make life more enjoyable for others.  Life is short, you should be doing something you love every day.
I am ready to live the life I've always dreamed about. One day at a time, with my family and friends surrounding me with love and support... I will find a way.

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