Swimming Against The Current

Obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it. I’m truly trying. It’s been about a year since my first hand surgery and I had hope I’d have that one surgery and my hand would be normal. It wasn’t. 7 months later I had another one to tweak what was done and I thought for sure it would be 100% after that one. It wasn’t. 3 months later I had my third surgery and said to myself, “this is the last one, it’s going to work!” It didn’t. Over the last 4 months, my hand has progressively gotten worse. I now have no feeling in my thumb or index finger, all fingers are hyperextending, severe pain in my forearm and a shock like feeling in the top of my hand. There is nothing I want more than to just give up right now. But every time I think that’s what i want to do, I realize that’s not who I am and there is no way I will just be ok with everyone telling me there’s nothing that can be done. I