Swimming Against The Current

So yesterday I had a little scare. I woke up and felt ok and got ready for work. After I ate breakfast I felt really sick and ended up throwing up. I didn't think that much of it, and headed to work as I normally would. I didn't feel like eating anything for the rest of the day and around 10am I started getting a lot of cramping and contractions. I started to get a little nervous and talked to my boss (who just recently had a baby) about my symptoms. She told me to call my doctor right away. I tried and tried to get through to my doctor but it took nearly an hour for them to answer. They weren't that concerned and told me to just go to my appointment early (I had an appt at 3:30). It was raining out and by this time the contractions were getting closer together and everyone at work didn't want me driving 45 minutes to Fort Myers to see my doctor when I could go to a hospital 10 minutes away. My boss then drove me to the hospital nearby for an evaluation. I was

After a few days of resting at home after my surgery, I had to go back to school. As it was, I was a freshman... you know, one of those kids that seniors found it amusing to make fun of. I walked into school petrified of what might happen when I walked down the hall with that brace on. I had nightmares of dropping all my books and no one helping me pick them up. Well, I didn't drop all my books but it was torture. I talked to my teachers ahead of time so it was okay to leave class early so I wouldn't have to be in the hall the same time as everyone else. The worst part was that my friends were all embarrassed of me. No one wanted to walk with me or talk to me. I lost all my friends that year, I obviously wasn't going to be cheering, and my boyfriend at the time broke up with me because I couldn't shave my armpits. I didn't think my life could get much worse. I held my head high and tried to think positive. I went to physical therapy and I got through that

My baby shower was amazing. Thank you so much to everyone who helped planned it, everyone was there and for all the great gifts. Ryan and I really appreciate all of it. Hailey will now be the best dressed baby girl out there! =) Our visit to MA was so nice. I loved seeing everyone and I loved the weather!! It was way too short of a visit but it was still nice. In about 7 weeks my parents will be here and hopefully Hailey will come shortly after that. The time is flying by!! I can't wait to meet my baby girl but I'm going to miss her movements inside of me! I've never felt anything like it and I never knew how much I could love someone before meeting them. It's such an amazing feeling. My dystonia is still about the same. I did get a muscle spasm in my neck that was very scary and my back is still killing me. Work is getting harder every day and I don't know how much longer I can do it. Hopefully I can make it through August. Well, time to rest now!!