Swimming Against The Current

That moment when your driving in the car and your favorite song comes on and your singing away, turning up the volume over the voices of your fighting kids.  Then your 5 year old screams and cries because its too loud and your 3 year old is screaming "window down" then you put his window down and he puts it up himself then screams "window down" over and over.  Then you get to the store and your 5 year old is flipping out because she doesn't want to go in, and your 3 year old has no shoes on and is soaked from squeezing his cup all over himself. Then you decide you'll bring them to the playground because that will be fun, right?  and then the 3 year old runs so fast he falls and scrapes his knee and the 5 year old is too hot and too shy to talk to her friends and sweating, and thirsty, and hungry, and miserable. And then you tell them its time to leave and they both cry because its sooo much fun suddenly. So, you stay. And then they hate it. So, you bring the

Over the last few weeks, I started to develop symptoms again, mostly in my left hand.  I decided to check my DBS battery and it said ERI.  At first, I thought this meant it was dead but then I looked into it and it seemed like it was still working but the battery was running low.  Last Tuesday I saw my neurologist and he confirmed my battery was dying and I needed to schedule surgery ASAP.  They managed to get me in pretty quickly, and yesterday morning, I went in to have it replaced. I was concerned because it has only been a little over a year since I had it replaced.  I do not want to do this every year!  My first battery lasted 3 years! The neurosurgeon and the rep from Medtronic both talked to me about my settings.  They said they are very high and they are concerned that the leads in my head could be misplaced.  This would cause the DBS to not work 100% effectively.  If my symptoms don't improve, they want to do an MRI to check the leads in my head.  If they are in the wr

Life is too short to be anything but happy.  I believe in happiness, and I believe in love and laughter and creating a beautiful life of all things that you've ever dreamed of.  I believe in fairytales and magic and the imagination of an innocent child. I imagined my life full of love and happiness and raising beautiful, healthy, strong children.  I imagined myself living in a beautiful home with a beautiful yard and becoming a writer.  Sometimes our lives don't turn into the fairytale we imagine its going to be but it turns into something so much better and so much more beautiful.  My children are so amazing and have taught me what it means to be strong, how it feels to love someone more than life itself and how precious time is and how fast the days go by.  I never became a writer but everything else came true. I hope to someday be a motivational speaker. I want to share with the world everything ive overcome.  I am proud of myself for fighting through dystonia and chan