Swimming Against The Current

The Dystance4Dystonia walk is in about a month and 1/2 and I want to thank everyone who has donated or registered to walk.  I am now up to over $1200!  The goal is 7500, so I still have a long way to go but this is definately a good start.  Just a few reminders to everyone who wants to walk or donate: Only $25 for an individual to register to walk $60 for a family to walk Everyone that registers gets a tshirt If you are pledging, you need to raise atleast $100 and I need the forms and money in atleast a few weeks ahead of time I strongly suggest everyone sign up online and not wait until that day, I need an estimated head count 3 weeks before the event and if you sign up online, you get a tshirt We have to order the tshirts and we will probably have a few extra but if you wait until the day of the event to sign up, we may not have enough or we may not have your size We will have 50 children's tshirts to hand out the walk is a 5k, so it is a little over 3 miles If anyone w

Last week I had a follow up with the eye doctor.  In September she had given me glasses because I was losing my peripheral vision.  She thought it was because of the DBS and it was going to get better and eventually I wouldnt need the glasses.  She wanted to check up six months later though, to make sure. This time, my field study showed my eyes were getting much worse.  Now I have to go see a neurological eye doctor in Boston to make sure theres nothing serious or to find out if there is anything else that can be done to help.  She told my dad and I that I might go blind eventually.  I was devastated.  This cant be happening.  I dont believe it, I cant.  Im not really that religious but this time I think I need to pray and ask god to help me get through this.  I will NOT go blind.  I hope she made a mistake and I will forever see my beautiful daughter and future kids and grandchildren and neices and nephews and Ryan and mom and dad and everyone i love so much. 

     In June 2009, my dystonia was really bad.  That is when my wrist curled in and I lost complete use of my whole left hand.  I started wearing a wrist brace and little did I know I would wear it for 3 1/2 years straight.  Anyway, I applied for social security disability beacause it was impossible to work.  I had a job for two weeks in Florida around that time and was fired because I "didnt fit in" even though I know it was because of my dystonia.       I was denied social security twice and had to get a lawyer and go to court.  It took until now for that to all happen.  Last friday, I finally had my court date.  I met with the lawyer the night before and he went over what was going to happen.  He told me the questions he was going to ask and said to just "tell my story."  I was looking forward to it because I never could tell my story, it was just all on paper.       Friday morning, my mom and I went to worcester to the hearing.  I was so nervous, my neck was t

There is something about the sun shining and music playing that always seems to make people in a good mood.  There is nothing more enjoyable then sitting outside in March in a tshirt watching my girl play in the grass.  Usually we have piles of dirt covered snow this time of year.  March is usually my least favorite month because I want it to be spring so badly but it seems so far away.  This year it came early, I think because I really needed it!  Life is so much better in flip flops! I believe everyone in life has a purpose.  Some people were born to help sick people, some were born to fight for our freedom.  Some people were born to make people laugh, others were born to sing.  Some people were born to work and some people were born to have fun.  I have yet to find my purpose in life.  I want to do something big, I want to be strong and help others.  I want to make someone proud, be someones hero.  I want to write a book, and be the BEST mother possible to Hailey and all of my fut