Swimming Against The Current

On the morning of February 3rd, I had a little cramping but nothing worse then I had been having.  I decided to go grocery shopping and get some things to eat during the superbowl.  While I was at market basket I started having contractions that I couldnt walk or talk through.  I had a few that were three minutes apart but they didnt seem that regular.   I text Ryan and said "today is the day" kind of joking around.  I finished shopping and headed home.  When I got home, I made buffalo chicken dip and sat down with Ryan and had some.  I didnt have a change in appetite or anything so I didnt really think I was in labor.  I started having more painful contractions that hurt more in my sides and back which made me think something might be starting.  The contractions I had before were just in my lower abdomen.  I started timing the contractions and they were about 8 minutes apart and before long I was on my hands and knees in pain.  I decided I should call the doctor to see what

These last few weeks have been the longest weeks of my entire life.  Ive never wanted anything more then to have this baby.  I know I am not due until Tuesday but I have been having braxton hicks contractions forever and they are starting to become painful.  My foot is really sore due to the extra weight on it when I walk.  My  belly is so big its so hard to bend over and clean and to stand for long periods to cook and to take care of Hailey.  Last Wednesday was my last day of work because I expected to go into labor this week.  It never happened and I ended up just sitting around waiting.  I tried going out a few times with Hailey to the mall and stuff to pass the time and to walk to try to get things moving but all it does it make me tired and Hailey cranky.  At my 37 week appointment I wasnt dilated at all, at 38 weeks I was 1 cm 50% effaced and yesterday at my 39 week appointment I was still only 1 cm 50% effaced.  The doctor said he doesnt think I will go into labor on my own so i