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The Waiting Game

These last few weeks have been the longest weeks of my entire life.  Ive never wanted anything more then to have this baby.  I know I am not due until Tuesday but I have been having braxton hicks contractions forever and they are starting to become painful.  My foot is really sore due to the extra weight on it when I walk.  My  belly is so big its so hard to bend over and clean and to stand for long periods to cook and to take care of Hailey.  Last Wednesday was my last day of work because I expected to go into labor this week.  It never happened and I ended up just sitting around waiting.  I tried going out a few times with Hailey to the mall and stuff to pass the time and to walk to try to get things moving but all it does it make me tired and Hailey cranky.  At my 37 week appointment I wasnt dilated at all, at 38 weeks I was 1 cm 50% effaced and yesterday at my 39 week appointment I was still only 1 cm 50% effaced.  The doctor said he doesnt think I will go into labor on my own so if I dont go by Tuesday they are going to induce me.  There is an end in sight!  I could of gone today or this weekend but my favorite doctor took 4 days off for the super bowl so I wanted to wait until he could deliver!!  I am so excited I cant even stand it!  Right now Cody is measuring 8lbs 14 oz.  Hes going to be a big boy and I cannot wait to hold him and kiss him!! So, Im going in Tuesday morning at 7am to start the process of welcoming him into this world.

I think Hailey is getting a bit jealous and Cody isnt even here yet.  I asked her if she was going to help me with him and she closed her eyes, pushed her lip out into her attitude pout, shook her head and said "I dont like Cody!"  I think she will adjust quick enough but right now she doesnt fully understand.  She points to my belly and says "no no no!"  Yesterday at the doctor, he looked at her and said "Hi Hailey" and she turned her whole body to the wall with that same attitude pout and lip and wouldnt speak.  She may be 2 but she has the attitude of a 15 year old.  I wanted to laugh because she looked hilarious but instead I tried to tell her to say hi to the doctor because she was being rude! 

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