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Rough Days

Monday was a bad day. I counted 8 spasms in my foot and my neck also got stuck. I felt scared to move, petrified to pick up Hailey and depressed at how fast its progressing. Tuesday was better. I went for a long walk and did wii active, I felt good and had a lot of energy. Yesterday was bad again. I lost count on the spasms but they were there. I'm having a hard time thinking positive at this point. I'm still in the process of finding doctors here that are willing to help, I dont know why everything has to be so difficult and take so long.
As I sit here and think about this dystonia, I feel like it has taken over my life but then I think about people who have it much worse and think that this isn't bad at all. I recently heard about my old principal's 6 year old daughter who is dying of cancer. How could I complain about anything when they are going through that? I see her smiling face on her facebook page and it makes me want to be a better person, she has become such an inspiration to me and although I have never met her, I know she is such a strong and beautiful little girl. I wish nothing but the best to that whole family and I hope everyone can continue to pray for her.

Just a little update on Hailey..she is 5 weeks old now and doing great. She is getting so big already, becoming so alert and staying awake longer during the day so I can play with her! She smiles all the time and loves taking a bath! I love being a mommy soo much!!

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