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Push for your dreams

Life is too short to be anything but happy.  I believe in happiness, and I believe in love and laughter and creating a beautiful life of all things that you've ever dreamed of.  I believe in fairytales and magic and the imagination of an innocent child.

I imagined my life full of love and happiness and raising beautiful, healthy, strong children.  I imagined myself living in a beautiful home with a beautiful yard and becoming a writer. 

Sometimes our lives don't turn into the fairytale we imagine its going to be but it turns into something so much better and so much more beautiful.  My children are so amazing and have taught me what it means to be strong, how it feels to love someone more than life itself and how precious time is and how fast the days go by. 

I never became a writer but everything else came true. I hope to someday be a motivational speaker. I want to share with the world everything ive overcome.  I am proud of myself for fighting through dystonia and changing my life.  I fight so hard to help Cody overcome his obstacles as well. 

I believe you can be anything you want to be.  I'm trying so hard to push for my dreams, to succeed in something I've always wanted.  I want my children to know that they can be anything they want to be when they grow up and there is nothing in the world that will stop them from that. 

Cody has taught me this, with his inability to communicate, he still pushes for what he wants.  He socializes and succeeds.  He overcomes obstacles that would knock others off their feet.  His strength inspires me to be something so much more. 

Hailey has taught me about love and patience and understanding. She is a beautiful little girl who is going to go so far in life. She wants to be a vet when she grows up and I have no doubt that's exactly what she will do.

In the end, happiness and strength will get you through the day. Hold your head high and push for your dreams, you can be ANYTHING you want to be!

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