Swimming Against The Current

So yesterday I had a little scare. I woke up and felt ok and got ready for work. After I ate breakfast I felt really sick and ended up throwing up. I didn't think that much of it, and headed to work as I normally would. I didn't feel like eating anything for the rest of the day and around 10am I started getting a lot of cramping and contractions. I started to get a little nervous and talked to my boss (who just recently had a baby) about my symptoms. She told me to call my doctor right away. I tried and tried to get through to my doctor but it took nearly an hour for them to answer. They weren't that concerned and told me to just go to my appointment early (I had an appt at 3:30). It was raining out and by this time the contractions were getting closer together and everyone at work didn't want me driving 45 minutes to Fort Myers to see my doctor when I could go to a hospital 10 minutes away. My boss then drove me to the hospital nearby for an evaluation. I was...

After a few days of resting at home after my surgery, I had to go back to school. As it was, I was a freshman... you know, one of those kids that seniors found it amusing to make fun of. I walked into school petrified of what might happen when I walked down the hall with that brace on. I had nightmares of dropping all my books and no one helping me pick them up. Well, I didn't drop all my books but it was torture. I talked to my teachers ahead of time so it was okay to leave class early so I wouldn't have to be in the hall the same time as everyone else. The worst part was that my friends were all embarrassed of me. No one wanted to walk with me or talk to me. I lost all my friends that year, I obviously wasn't going to be cheering, and my boyfriend at the time broke up with me because I couldn't shave my armpits. I didn't think my life could get much worse. I held my head high and tried to think positive. I went to physical therapy and I got through that ...

My baby shower was amazing. Thank you so much to everyone who helped planned it, everyone was there and for all the great gifts. Ryan and I really appreciate all of it. Hailey will now be the best dressed baby girl out there! =) Our visit to MA was so nice. I loved seeing everyone and I loved the weather!! It was way too short of a visit but it was still nice. In about 7 weeks my parents will be here and hopefully Hailey will come shortly after that. The time is flying by!! I can't wait to meet my baby girl but I'm going to miss her movements inside of me! I've never felt anything like it and I never knew how much I could love someone before meeting them. It's such an amazing feeling. My dystonia is still about the same. I did get a muscle spasm in my neck that was very scary and my back is still killing me. Work is getting harder every day and I don't know how much longer I can do it. Hopefully I can make it through August. Well, time to rest now!!

Well, it's been a while. My internet was down for a few weeks so I wasn't able to update anything!! Now its up and working again. I am almost 31 weeks now and baby Hailey weighs a little over 3 lbs! Shes getting big... and so am I!! I am feeling pretty good, besides the normal aches and pains. Ryan and I are flying home to MA on Thursday and I am getting very excited!! It will be a very short visit but I am looking forward to seeing my family! My baby shower is on Saturday, so that should be fun too!! Hopefully I will have time to update again shortly! Bye for now!

Today I had a doctor appointment in Tampa with a new neurologist. Since no one close by will take my insurance, I had to drive 2 1/2 hours to see a doctor for five minutes. First of all, I walked in and heard the doctor complaining to the receptionist about another patient. I thought it was very unprofessional and I hope she didn't do that after I left. She finally called me into the room, looked at me and said "what do you want me to do?" I thought she was the doctor, not me, but I told her my obgyn wanted me to be seen to make sure I was doing okay with the dystonia during my pregnancy. "I can't do anything for you while your pregnant," was her response. I knew right then and there that this visit was a waste of my time. She didn't examine me at all. The good thing though, is that I will be able to go see her after the baby is born to get botox injections. She also sent me to an orthotics place to get a new brace. The guy there was very nice...

I woke up from surgery crying. All I wanted was my mommy. I can't remember ever being in so much pain before. I reached my hand under the blanket and felt my arm to see if they needed to put the brace on me. It was there. This giant "gunslinger" wrapped around my arm that I was going to have to wear for a while. It was not the most comfortable thing. My parents and my sisters came in the room to see me and I just burst into tears. I didn't want surgery anymore, but it was too late. Kristy's face was white as a ghost and I thought she was going to faint. I remember seing tears in my mom's eyes as she held my hand and told me I was going to be better soon. It was hard to believe but I knew she was right. The surgeon came in shortly after and explained to us that there was more damage than he had expected and that's why I had to wear the gunslinger and not a regular sling. He did a procedure called the bankart. He had to make an incision under my ...

My belly is getting big. I'm getting a bit uncomfortable but more and more excited every day to meet my little princess. We have started decorating Hailey's room and have received a few gifts from family and friends, thank you all so much, Ryan and I really appreciate it. Work is getting harder and harder. Last week we had a few babies with roseola, so I had to go to the doctor to make sure I was going to be okay. The kids are always sick so its a little scary to be holding them all the time. I'm supposed to be working in the office soon, hopefully real soon! I have only 41 days of work left... I can do it!! After that I am taking a few weeks before my due date to relax and spend time with my mom and dad. I can't wait until they come visit!!! I just hope they are still here when little miss Hailey arrives. Next week Kristy, Gary, Zach and Libby are coming! I cannot wait to see them!!!! Ryan and I are taking a trip to Orlando for the weekend to visit with them, so...